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19 02 2012

To keep motivating day in and day out there are so many ways!  Yoga, Meditation, Gym, Music, Spiritual activities, Long drives and the list goes on and on.  However, the important ingredient is the “start”.  And it has to be within.  Since 4 weeks or so I have been suffering from depression!  Yes, there is a reason. There would be a reason for everyone to go into that state.  And the reason need not be a blunder and/or regret.  It could be as simple as spilling the coffee on the dress or as big as losing a most valuable person in life.  But the so called depression, it’s like a drug. 

Negative thoughts through and through, best critic you’ve ever seen or known in the world! The one feeling that actually makes us believe that “I am seriously a waste piece on this Planet Earth”!  It’s as serious as I see myself in the mirror and I hate to see the mirror again i.e., I hate myself so much. It’s a pain you can never explain! In spite of so much of negativity, we still give space to those thoughts.

Friends, Family, Hobbies everyone are available to help and get us out from this situation.  But we deny everyone’s help.  It’s not that we don’t want to take their help.  It’s the gush of so many thoughts which are shouting that these are the facts of you.  This is your life.  Eventually, we believe those thoughts so much that we actually don’t realize that we are into depression already.

Does that mean we don’t smile, stay lost and / or lose concentration? No, not really.  As long as we are in the crowd, the life goes on.  Laugh, Smile, crack a joke, complete the tasks, carry on with the daily life.  Only that the life is missing in those tasks.  It’s like as if we have already grown 10 years older in 10 days.  Nothing whatsoever will make us feel better. 

The funny part is, it all starts with a reason and the reason itself gets lost.  The thoughts would be so horrifying that the reason now is you. 

Well, as I already stated in the beginning to get out of this situation the start should be from within.  I am trying, I haven’t succeeded yet.  I am still struggling.  One day I feel that I am recovering.  I can push away all the negativity in me.  And the next day the thought process comes back to square one.  This time I am firm not to be a prey.





Self Appreciation Matters!

12 02 2012

“Change” a very interesting thing that keeps on happening in life!  No matter whatever we ignore; change and hope are two things that can never be left behind. 

However, there is a small catch in this.  If one is very fast in adapting the change it’s tough to digest the fact and hence random comments will be passed.  And if one does not accept the change that person is termed as “old fashioned”.  For instance I have this guy in my team who follows trend up to date.  His way of dressing amuses many people on the floor. It’s not that he dresses awkward but it’s just too early to dress up like that in the city of Vizag.  Attitude really matters!  This guy for sure know the thinking of that “many people” but he simply does what he loves.

Anyways, the thought behind to write this topic was; yesterday I was conducting this Personality Development sessions and there came a topic about how important it is to “show case” ones self.  Our parents always taught us how to be humble, obedient, show respect so on and so forth.  However, “most of” our parents have forgotten to teach us that it is equally important to show case the talents which we possess and it is not at all a negative point to exhibit them.

They have taught us how to appreciate others; however, forgotten to explain how important it is to appreciate one self.  They have always taught us how to compliment others when someone does the right thing but forgot to let us know how important it is to compliment ones self for the right thing we do.

Yesterday, when I was conducting this session I have asked a question to the class i.e., what was one factor that they like in themselves; out of 15 employees who have attended the session only 3 of them were able to answer immediately.  The rest of them took a real hard time to realize what the factor they appreciate in themselves was and some gave up saying they don’t have any!!  All of them had a minimum of 26 to a maximum of 36 years of work experience in their present field and except for a couple of them all belong to the Capital city of India.

Adapt the change; understand that there is nothing wrong to love ourselves.  In fact it is the most important factor in life!  Appreciate.  Motivate.  Give importance.  Exhibit!  Everything has to start from within.

Today I write this because it’s been ages that I am habituated to be humble.  I have been habituated so much that if someone compliment’s me I feel embarrassed rather than being proud.  Thanks to the present organization, I have learn’t that “exhibiting selling your hard work” is a very important factor to climb up the ladder.  No matter how much the management knows how good my tasks are driven through, nothing matters if I am not able to explain the same in an interview!

Today I write this because if I compare how many times I was proud of myself and how many times I regretted for not doing the task or not taking the right decision properly.  The amount of criticism that I have given to myself was much more than appreciation.

I realized this importance 3 years ago and I am still struggling to achieve my goal.  So friends if you are already there I appreciate for realizing and adapting the change.  If you are like me, I hope we achieve what we have aimed soon.  And if you are still not there, it’s high time that you realize the importance of yourself!!

Wish me Good Luck and Good Luck to you too!!





Life! Are you the Cause or the Affect?

27 01 2012

“How is life?” Often I find this question very complicated!

The generic answer I give is “Bindas”!  Well, originally it carries a meaning, which gives, “I care a damn” attitude.  However, it’s a generic way of saying “cool”.

Sometimes I get into this so called feeling which pulls out all my energy and gives me a feeling that I am hopeless!  Once again after many years I am drowning into it.  I see no way up.  I am just going down and down and for now I feel like let me go down more and more and let it be end for once and for all.

Nothingness!   Despair!  Hopelessness! 

Tricky part is when you know everything!

When you know how to motivate yourself but still don’t feel like doing it.  When you know that the discussion you are having is leading to the wrong conclusion but still you can’t help but continue.  When you know that confessing something would do no good but still tend to do it.  When you know that killing the ego would solve many problems but still hold on to it.

That feeling when you realize that there is a long road to walk through not having any destination.

O Life!

You give me happiness which last for seconds and grant me sadness for days and weeks!  You give me moments for a day or two and leave me with memories for life long to dwell.

Why are you so difficult to understand?  Why are you so full of knowledge that I have to learn from you each and every second?

What makes you feel happy and what makes you feel sad? I dare ask you this question because you are my action and I am your reaction!

Tell me what should I do? I kneel before you and ask you this day, why do you keep throwing these emotions at me and make me feel numb!

For the first time ever! I really want to leave you but I know I don’t have that choice! I need answers!!  Often people say that I am the Cause and you are the Affect.  What are you?





Twenty Eleven

5 01 2012

Every year has always been special to me, for it has all the 365 days filled with memories and learning!  Coming to this particular year, this has just not been special but precious too! 🙂

Going back to the Month of Jan ’11 the very beginning was a tension reliever for the previous year at professional front.  Journey started off so quickly that there was no time whatsoever to sit, relax, assess and think!

Travel!

This year “He” called us early to visit “His” place!  Every year I usually plan Siridi trip in the Month of September; this year it started off “unplanned” (Ok, for me unplanned is planning just before a Month 😛 ) In the Month of May we have been to Siridi and within a Month we were off to Varanasi and Kolkata!  November’s trip was always to Tirupaty; this year I have been to Hyderabad and Mumbai before I reached the ultimate destination! 🙂

Food!

I love eggs! Whatever might be the dish I just love them!  Someone told me that we have to leave one dish which we love the most in Varanasi!  There was a long debate within me whether to quit eating egg or paneer as I love both equally!  Finally I gave up on eggs. 😦 Well, when one of my friends came to know about this his immediate reaction was, Latha I think you should throw your mobile out there in Ganga as I don’t see you love anything else more than Mobile!  Hahha.. Luckily that leaving thing applied only to eatables lol :D.

Movies!

This year my favorite movie was released and it’s over finally! 😦 Yup I am talking about Harry Potter!  It’s hard to believe that all the sequels came to an end.  Yet it’s the fact.  Well, I always like those films whether or not it is close to book.  The only reason is it cannot be close to book!  J.K. has filled the information in the books so much that if the Director really has to show everything in the movies, it would not take 8 but surely 18 movies to complete the same!  Would love to watch cartoon as per book though! 🙂  Out of all the movies I have watched (watched not released) in this year two movies topped the list and one left a memory!  “Zindagi na Milegi Dobara” and “Pyar ka Punchnama” were awesome 😀 The movie “Journey” was nice but only with memories!  Did I say that I have seen that hero of the movie “Saravanan” the very next day as he came to CMR Central 😀

Work!

Well, couldn’t have been better!  It was a roll-a-coaster ride! To conclude, the journey had everything. Tension, excitement, fear and finally that sigh of relief! 😀 😀

Hobby & Interest!

I am out of this age old habit of forwarding messages to friends!  Thanks to TRAI regulations.  I do miss forwarding them.  However, I think this is it 🙂  Social Network browsing also has come down “a bit”.  Listening to music, ride on bike and MP3 while I ride are still intact and it’s not easy to let go off those “interesting hobbies” 😉  And I am still not able to change the tracks of “Rockstar” yet in my MP3!

Learning!

Yep loads!! I can surely say I have changed a lot this year! Have been rude, strong and adamant too at times when situations demanded!  Have been hurt of course with some expectations, disappointments and not so good surprises!

Memories!

This year is filled with so many memories and precious moments that it’s worth a life time!

  • My dream to travel alone and stay alone in a city was finally fulfilled, I have been to Mumbai stayed there for 3 long days and was back to Tirupaty.  😀 😀
  • Met my Hogwarts family!  I don’t know if I could have made the Varanasi trip any better and easy for both myself and parents without Shadab and Anirban.  Needless to say it was awesome meeting and spending time with them.  But those 3 days were simply superb 🙂 Kolkata wouldn’t have been a nice trip at all if it was not for meeting my Joyita beti 🙂  Then the precious 3 days i.e., Mumbai journey with my lil brother Venkat and a short lil meet with Sampath at Hyderabad, meeting all my lovely brothers and sisters Ketki, Harsh, Gareema, Rinish and Dinesh was truly memorable!  All in all though it was just three destinations, we all belonged to different States which were UP, AP, Kerala, Tamilnadu West Bengal, Bihar and Maharashtra. 😀 Year 2012 I am planning to cover Delhi and Amritsar!  Let’s see what’s in store 🙂
  • Thanks to my job!  Financial aspect was a lil better.  As such there were no memories, but all in all the year was pleasant with less and/or no tensions 🙂
  • Thanks to my bestie, I was able to deliver a softskills and personality development session to the Naval Dockyard Employees who were from Delhi and had not less than 23 years of service, which was a feather in the cap for my trainer’s skills! The feedback that I’ve received was.. well, a broad smile on my face! 🙂
  • And lastly there was one precious feeling that I’ve realized towards the end of the year! 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

If I continue to write I hope the space on blog wouldn’t be enough 😀

Before I wrap up and say goodbyes and well wishes, would like to share an incident, which happened on 31st of December!  Logged off from my shift, and started my bike, due to rains or what I don’t know but the horn continued to blow as soon as I turned on the key.  One gentleman came to help me out of this situation.  He was trying to cut the wire of the horn switch so that the noise would stop.  In the process he even got a slight cut on his hand.  Finally he was able to cut the wire.   The horn stopped.  But then what we realized was, the horn switch actually is on the left side of the bike and we both seriously cut the wire on the right side, which was for the ignition key!  😀 😀 😀 the horn didn’t stop when the wire was cut, it stopped because accidentally my thumb pulled the horn key out which was stuck!

Well, I got my bike repaired that’s a different matter.  What I wanted to say here is.. life is all about lots of laughs and beautiful moments, be it small or big!! Treasure it, Enjoy it and Move on!!!

Happy 2012 my friends!!! 🙂





Moments!

23 12 2011

A help which turns out to be a fiasco!

Disapproval from the loved ones who is always taken for granted!

Mistrust / Misunderstanding!

A bad dream!

Bad news of self or others!

Failure at it’s best!

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A long drive / ride with Friends!

A gift to the loved ones and the shocking surprise on their face with a very happy smile!

Cards game with Mom and Dad!

A difficult problem, which is finally resolved!

A long awaited response from an adorable friend!

Crying out aloud and letting out the emotions for once and feeling better!!

Music!

In the middle of traffic, irritation on mind and there’s a smile from a lil kid, which is very apt for Newton’s III law!

Receiving a surprise gift from miles away on a birthday!

Help receiving out of no where, which is filled with none but gratitude!

A Crush!

A much tensed atmosphere, which bursts out like a balloon and no tension whatsoever!

A task / presentation turned to a success “a feather in the cap”!

Sunset / Sunrise / Full Moon / Silvery waves, in short Nature!

Life is all about moments!   An example of Pareto Analyses 80% of our depression is caused by 20% of our problems 😉 😛

Life is all about ignoring the “not so good” adopting the “feel good factors” and moving on!

Moments.. good or bad.. some are lessons..  some are memories!





SMS

22 11 2011

“Why are you so obsessed with sms?”  This question has been posed to me recently by my dear brother; however, this is not the first time I have faced this question.  Many of my friends have asked this before and some even scolded me for communicating important and urgent messages through sms rather than call.

Come to think of it ever since I have started using a mobile (i.e., since 1999) I was always and continued to use sms as main mode of communication.  Somehow, I feel comfortable chatting over sms and exchanging the ideas over sms rather than conversation on phone.  There are two reasons for this:

Firstly:  I need not ask them to repeat what they have said.

Secondly: There is a lot of privacy when you chat over sms rather than phone “no disturbance funda”.

I agree to the fact that this is a totally debatable topic!  I did try phone conversation instead of sms chat; it did not work.  When it comes to professional I am all fine communicating aptly and what is required to the point avoiding sms.  However, when it comes to personal life, I always find myself muted.  Others have to “knock” on my mobile to check if I am still holding the line 😛

I don’t think anyone was ever depressed as I was, when the TRAI imposed the limitation on sms LOL.  Thanks to them they have raised the limit to 200 sms per day.

By now all my close friends are well aware that I respond more promptly to sms rather than a phone call.  There have been times where I was totally free but I just let the phone ring instead of answering :P.

I also do not deny the fact sometimes it brings a lot of disturbance and misunderstanding by just missing a smiley at the end of the sms 😉

May be it’s just not the sms mode I prefer to communicate.  I love communicating mainly through emails, mails, and chat conversations.  I am not a techy geek; however, I prefer the “smart phones” just because of their internal memory capacity to store the messages 😀 😀

I am really not sure how many of you are just like me.   I am still a big fan of written communication!! 😀 😀





Living Amidst Hypothesis

15 10 2011

Philosophy is a strange subject which everyone is aware and no one would like to listen; however, most of us say it!  Here I come with my own thoughts once again with every moment of my life that gives me the learning of philosophy in every step.

When I was born I don’t remember carrying an attitude of being nice, rude, pleasant etc., but if I now turn to look back and see I had all these and more in every stage of this so called life!

How is one person defined as good, bad, egoistic and so on?  While I understand it’s easy to define evil how is it possible to define ones good and bad attitude?  Things which seem nicer to us are good and things which are not so nice and/or hurt us are bad.  When the point of view changes from one person to another, I don’t believe that I can define good and bad so easily!  It’s all situations demand.

No one would come on this Earth with a tag that reads “I am a good guy”, “I am a short tempered guy”, “I am a career oriented guy” and so on.  As life goes on you could see people tagging you with these things.  Amazingly one will have all the tags from different set of people.  Many of us say that I define myself and live accordingly.  Whether one agrees or disagrees that’s not entirely true!  In everyone’s life there is a little bit of compromise, little bit of sharing, little bit of trust (huge in fact) and expectation.

Life is good! Life is actually always at its best!  Life is a complaint only because of two things!! 1. Expectation. 2. Disappointment.





It’s been a while

20 08 2011

That I have posted anything new… Life is at it’s own will (as always) 😛

In the last three months I have learned…

to understand that there’s no point panicking over things that ought to happen!!

how important it is to remember what I have done and how important it is to portray the same every now and then regardless of requirement!

No matter how much I try, it happens only when it has to happen! That doesn’t mean I will stop trying 😉 😛

Leaving aside the learning if you question am I gonna implement it.. Well, I am still not ready to answer 🙂

It’s always easy to edit an essay, which is already written.. but difficult to start something afresh.. The truth is it’s just difficult .. Not impossible!

No big aims nor worries at the moment.. Just need to be ready for whatever am gonna face!





It’s Okay

20 08 2011

Waiting in a nice restaurant, looking at the watch, sipping the coffee, waiting for our friend/love/colleague to come and “expecting” them to be on time….

Given all the hard work, Did the best that can be done, now awaiting the result.. “expecting” the positive…..

Waiting for the clock to tick 12 midnight on our birthday and “expecting” our mobile to ring / buzz with warm wishes from the very one we so wish for……

Nice little word this “expectation” is.. 🙂 Oh yeah.. leads to another little word “disappointment” many a times!!

And whenever we are disappointed, there stands a saint like friend/parent/guardian advising you.. “my dear, do not expect, for it would lead you only to disappointment”

Are expectations always disappointments?? Honest answer “NO”

Then why do many of us come to a conclusion that we shouldn’t be expecting? 

Expectations should be there in life!! Obviously, if there are no expectations how can we achieve?? We qualify to preach as saint, don’t we?? 

The only thing to remember is .. It’s Okay if it didn’t happen, there is always next time!! 

It’s okay if our friend did not wish on the time we have expected, he/she wished us anyways!

It’s okay if we didn’t get what we want in life, we can still try anyways!

It’s okay if the girl/boy we proposed to just rejected, we have better options anyways! 😉

It’s okay if we did not receive help just when we needed, circumstance has passed through anyways!

It’s okay if we are encountering too many failures at the moment, life is a lesson anyways!

Disappointment is needed for a better homework! 

We have to realize that It’s Okay if that did not happened what has been expected, because it’s just an incident.  We have whole life in front of us anyways!!! 🙂 🙂





Am Alive! :D

9 01 2011

😀 😀 😀

Call it luck, Call it God’s grace.. but I could have been “late latha” today lolzz.. As usual I was on the way going to work.. On the NH-5 when I am driving in sixties my bike suddenly stops!!

Firstly, there was a bus 10 feet away and the driver managed to stop the bus at least just before me (full speed it was) and there were no lorries near by.  Else, I would have been dragged at least 10 feet away beneath those wheels 😀 😀  Secondly, it was Sunday, so there was moderate traffic instead of the usual heavy traffic.

Yep! Nothing happened so I am sitting here at my home and happily blogging!  Though I somehow managed not to fell off from my bike, but I didn’t really know what to do as I was in the middle of the road and the back wheel was completely stuck!  It just does not rotate 😦

There came the young man 🙂 don’t know who he was.  But he just helped me pushing the bike out of the highway on to the pavement and to the service lane.  I did thank him for all his help but didn’t know to thank more!

This post is purely to thank that guy 🙂 Feels really good to know that there are indeed few good men out there 🙂

If you are wondering what happened to my bike, well, I too don’t know 😦 I called my dear Dad and handed over the bike to him and continued with my office journey.  I just came to know that even the show room servicing guy couldn’t do much so he took the bike to the show room with the help of an auto-rickshaw 😦

I have to wait until tomorrow evening to know exactly the reason and I hope the repair does not repeat hhehehe.. coz luck does not favor everytime!! 😀 😀