Life at a Fast Track!

1 05 2012

It’s been just two months I am out of the blogging world; however, I feel like, I am out since ages! May be that is because these days I am very less into social networking sites, my mails and gtalk as well for various reasons.  Hope you all are doing great! 🙂

Planning and Implementing are very different things.  I always plan, but when it comes to implementation one could quote me as an example for the failure. 😛 😛

I have planned to make couple of trips, join the gym, update my credentials on my cv, purchase an inverter, celebrate my mom n dad’s marriage anniversary in a special way etc., etc.  Well, except for the “couple of trips” everything else remained the same.  No gym, my credentials lay the same, no inverter till date 😦 and well, my Mom and Dad’s marriage anniversary was just another day!

Amidst all these, life is really at a fast track! The first trip of the year worked out well I should say.  I always meet my online friends who are very close to me; therefore, I wanted to meet my dear sister Neha Singh.  So we planned to meet in Siridi along with our families!  Well, though I know perfectly well, that Neha would be equally eager to meet me, I was unsure about how our families would take it (as in blending in together).  Amazingly everything was so perfect!  The two days were just lovely!  Had a nice time with them and had to bid goodbyes and making some promises “we will meet soon again”.  😀

Well, my second trip plan is already on the chart, I have completed the task until booking tickets and getting the info on where to stay whom to contact etc., however, since the trip is planned in July, I would rather wait and watch until I board the train, instead of saying I have implemented. 😀

Financially I was very rich on the 25th of March 😀 😀 😀 I have planned so many things, listed out several items that would fit my home and make my parents life easy! Well, yet again that was 25th right?  Who’s not rich on a Salary day and that too if you have a bonus falling into your account.  Just a five days after that and I realized that the priorities were a lil different and now I am not saying I have gave up; but I need to wait until I finish my priorities, look for the savings and then plan something that is affordable.

Loneliness had never been such bliss in my life!  While the 1st stage of it made me Philosopher; 2nd stage had thrown me to depression; the 3rd stage which I am experiencing right now has actually brought a smile on my face 🙂 I do not know if there are further more stages or I keep shuffling between these stages but I wish I stay here right there.

There were some “interesting things” happening at work place!  All these days we knew that it would be happening some day.  Finally we witnessed it happening.  No suspense out there I am talking about the company working on re structuring and hence showing an “exit door” to the “selected employees”.

Loss of job always scares me to the core! What would I do? How would I survive? How would I clear my loans?  So on and so forth.   I don’t think I can do anything much about those scary thoughts.  To avoid that, the only thing I can do is prepare myself.  And I am honestly trying my best!

It’s easy to say “whatever happens; happens for good”, but to survive that time is not so easy.  Everyone who lost their job always knew that they would be into one company some day.  But until that “some day” and “some company” finally appear, it would be a daily fight within.  Whatever happens; “Hope” is the key word!

With this I take a leave and heading on to another day!  Hope you all have a lovely day too my lovely friends 🙂 take care and always keep smiling!!

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Lovables!

28 02 2012

Yesterday, I have done something, which I hated the most!  Guess what?  I actually felt better 🙂 I always wondered how people wander in the malls and spend time to choose that one particular thing / item.  However, when I was trying yesterday it made me feel nice.  Though a little disappointment was there that I couldn’t get what I actually started off for, yet I was happy to find something that I wanted for so long and could get them for once!

I was on the verge of buying anything and everything that fit me 😀 but logic came to my senses and my wallet put a halt to my interests 😉

 Shopping isn’t bad at all, if only, one has dollars to pay and you get at least half of what you have targeted for! 😉 😛

I mean, I am not saying I haven’t done shopping at all.  It’s just that I have never done shopping for myself! It was always for gifts.

I always wondered why most of the people “love” things and “like” people.  Now if I think about it, I don’t see any wrong in that.  Of course, people are to be loved but nonetheless things can also be loved.  I love my MP3, my Bike, spectacles, hair band, ear rings, mobile (now a days least interest), my computer and an endless list.  If I look at it, these are the necessities in my life. 

What would I do if at times I feel low and can’t be at home or have a company?  Isn’t my bike the best bud to have? And like icing on the cake if my MP3 wouldn’t support to drift my thoughts, wouldn’t I feel much low?

I know; to have those “precious” things, money is important, but, tell me even if you have money can you get people? Can you get their utmost dedication and priority towards you? But it’s not the same with things.  You purchase an item and it is yours forever!  It serves you until it lives!  If at all it’s down, you get it repaired and it is again up with renowned energy!

A bow to all the lovable things I have till date! Thanks for making my life much easier, happier and safer! 🙂





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19 02 2012

To keep motivating day in and day out there are so many ways!  Yoga, Meditation, Gym, Music, Spiritual activities, Long drives and the list goes on and on.  However, the important ingredient is the “start”.  And it has to be within.  Since 4 weeks or so I have been suffering from depression!  Yes, there is a reason. There would be a reason for everyone to go into that state.  And the reason need not be a blunder and/or regret.  It could be as simple as spilling the coffee on the dress or as big as losing a most valuable person in life.  But the so called depression, it’s like a drug. 

Negative thoughts through and through, best critic you’ve ever seen or known in the world! The one feeling that actually makes us believe that “I am seriously a waste piece on this Planet Earth”!  It’s as serious as I see myself in the mirror and I hate to see the mirror again i.e., I hate myself so much. It’s a pain you can never explain! In spite of so much of negativity, we still give space to those thoughts.

Friends, Family, Hobbies everyone are available to help and get us out from this situation.  But we deny everyone’s help.  It’s not that we don’t want to take their help.  It’s the gush of so many thoughts which are shouting that these are the facts of you.  This is your life.  Eventually, we believe those thoughts so much that we actually don’t realize that we are into depression already.

Does that mean we don’t smile, stay lost and / or lose concentration? No, not really.  As long as we are in the crowd, the life goes on.  Laugh, Smile, crack a joke, complete the tasks, carry on with the daily life.  Only that the life is missing in those tasks.  It’s like as if we have already grown 10 years older in 10 days.  Nothing whatsoever will make us feel better. 

The funny part is, it all starts with a reason and the reason itself gets lost.  The thoughts would be so horrifying that the reason now is you. 

Well, as I already stated in the beginning to get out of this situation the start should be from within.  I am trying, I haven’t succeeded yet.  I am still struggling.  One day I feel that I am recovering.  I can push away all the negativity in me.  And the next day the thought process comes back to square one.  This time I am firm not to be a prey.





Self Appreciation Matters!

12 02 2012

“Change” a very interesting thing that keeps on happening in life!  No matter whatever we ignore; change and hope are two things that can never be left behind. 

However, there is a small catch in this.  If one is very fast in adapting the change it’s tough to digest the fact and hence random comments will be passed.  And if one does not accept the change that person is termed as “old fashioned”.  For instance I have this guy in my team who follows trend up to date.  His way of dressing amuses many people on the floor. It’s not that he dresses awkward but it’s just too early to dress up like that in the city of Vizag.  Attitude really matters!  This guy for sure know the thinking of that “many people” but he simply does what he loves.

Anyways, the thought behind to write this topic was; yesterday I was conducting this Personality Development sessions and there came a topic about how important it is to “show case” ones self.  Our parents always taught us how to be humble, obedient, show respect so on and so forth.  However, “most of” our parents have forgotten to teach us that it is equally important to show case the talents which we possess and it is not at all a negative point to exhibit them.

They have taught us how to appreciate others; however, forgotten to explain how important it is to appreciate one self.  They have always taught us how to compliment others when someone does the right thing but forgot to let us know how important it is to compliment ones self for the right thing we do.

Yesterday, when I was conducting this session I have asked a question to the class i.e., what was one factor that they like in themselves; out of 15 employees who have attended the session only 3 of them were able to answer immediately.  The rest of them took a real hard time to realize what the factor they appreciate in themselves was and some gave up saying they don’t have any!!  All of them had a minimum of 26 to a maximum of 36 years of work experience in their present field and except for a couple of them all belong to the Capital city of India.

Adapt the change; understand that there is nothing wrong to love ourselves.  In fact it is the most important factor in life!  Appreciate.  Motivate.  Give importance.  Exhibit!  Everything has to start from within.

Today I write this because it’s been ages that I am habituated to be humble.  I have been habituated so much that if someone compliment’s me I feel embarrassed rather than being proud.  Thanks to the present organization, I have learn’t that “exhibiting selling your hard work” is a very important factor to climb up the ladder.  No matter how much the management knows how good my tasks are driven through, nothing matters if I am not able to explain the same in an interview!

Today I write this because if I compare how many times I was proud of myself and how many times I regretted for not doing the task or not taking the right decision properly.  The amount of criticism that I have given to myself was much more than appreciation.

I realized this importance 3 years ago and I am still struggling to achieve my goal.  So friends if you are already there I appreciate for realizing and adapting the change.  If you are like me, I hope we achieve what we have aimed soon.  And if you are still not there, it’s high time that you realize the importance of yourself!!

Wish me Good Luck and Good Luck to you too!!





Life! Are you the Cause or the Affect?

27 01 2012

“How is life?” Often I find this question very complicated!

The generic answer I give is “Bindas”!  Well, originally it carries a meaning, which gives, “I care a damn” attitude.  However, it’s a generic way of saying “cool”.

Sometimes I get into this so called feeling which pulls out all my energy and gives me a feeling that I am hopeless!  Once again after many years I am drowning into it.  I see no way up.  I am just going down and down and for now I feel like let me go down more and more and let it be end for once and for all.

Nothingness!   Despair!  Hopelessness! 

Tricky part is when you know everything!

When you know how to motivate yourself but still don’t feel like doing it.  When you know that the discussion you are having is leading to the wrong conclusion but still you can’t help but continue.  When you know that confessing something would do no good but still tend to do it.  When you know that killing the ego would solve many problems but still hold on to it.

That feeling when you realize that there is a long road to walk through not having any destination.

O Life!

You give me happiness which last for seconds and grant me sadness for days and weeks!  You give me moments for a day or two and leave me with memories for life long to dwell.

Why are you so difficult to understand?  Why are you so full of knowledge that I have to learn from you each and every second?

What makes you feel happy and what makes you feel sad? I dare ask you this question because you are my action and I am your reaction!

Tell me what should I do? I kneel before you and ask you this day, why do you keep throwing these emotions at me and make me feel numb!

For the first time ever! I really want to leave you but I know I don’t have that choice! I need answers!!  Often people say that I am the Cause and you are the Affect.  What are you?





Twenty Eleven

5 01 2012

Every year has always been special to me, for it has all the 365 days filled with memories and learning!  Coming to this particular year, this has just not been special but precious too! 🙂

Going back to the Month of Jan ’11 the very beginning was a tension reliever for the previous year at professional front.  Journey started off so quickly that there was no time whatsoever to sit, relax, assess and think!

Travel!

This year “He” called us early to visit “His” place!  Every year I usually plan Siridi trip in the Month of September; this year it started off “unplanned” (Ok, for me unplanned is planning just before a Month 😛 ) In the Month of May we have been to Siridi and within a Month we were off to Varanasi and Kolkata!  November’s trip was always to Tirupaty; this year I have been to Hyderabad and Mumbai before I reached the ultimate destination! 🙂

Food!

I love eggs! Whatever might be the dish I just love them!  Someone told me that we have to leave one dish which we love the most in Varanasi!  There was a long debate within me whether to quit eating egg or paneer as I love both equally!  Finally I gave up on eggs. 😦 Well, when one of my friends came to know about this his immediate reaction was, Latha I think you should throw your mobile out there in Ganga as I don’t see you love anything else more than Mobile!  Hahha.. Luckily that leaving thing applied only to eatables lol :D.

Movies!

This year my favorite movie was released and it’s over finally! 😦 Yup I am talking about Harry Potter!  It’s hard to believe that all the sequels came to an end.  Yet it’s the fact.  Well, I always like those films whether or not it is close to book.  The only reason is it cannot be close to book!  J.K. has filled the information in the books so much that if the Director really has to show everything in the movies, it would not take 8 but surely 18 movies to complete the same!  Would love to watch cartoon as per book though! 🙂  Out of all the movies I have watched (watched not released) in this year two movies topped the list and one left a memory!  “Zindagi na Milegi Dobara” and “Pyar ka Punchnama” were awesome 😀 The movie “Journey” was nice but only with memories!  Did I say that I have seen that hero of the movie “Saravanan” the very next day as he came to CMR Central 😀

Work!

Well, couldn’t have been better!  It was a roll-a-coaster ride! To conclude, the journey had everything. Tension, excitement, fear and finally that sigh of relief! 😀 😀

Hobby & Interest!

I am out of this age old habit of forwarding messages to friends!  Thanks to TRAI regulations.  I do miss forwarding them.  However, I think this is it 🙂  Social Network browsing also has come down “a bit”.  Listening to music, ride on bike and MP3 while I ride are still intact and it’s not easy to let go off those “interesting hobbies” 😉  And I am still not able to change the tracks of “Rockstar” yet in my MP3!

Learning!

Yep loads!! I can surely say I have changed a lot this year! Have been rude, strong and adamant too at times when situations demanded!  Have been hurt of course with some expectations, disappointments and not so good surprises!

Memories!

This year is filled with so many memories and precious moments that it’s worth a life time!

  • My dream to travel alone and stay alone in a city was finally fulfilled, I have been to Mumbai stayed there for 3 long days and was back to Tirupaty.  😀 😀
  • Met my Hogwarts family!  I don’t know if I could have made the Varanasi trip any better and easy for both myself and parents without Shadab and Anirban.  Needless to say it was awesome meeting and spending time with them.  But those 3 days were simply superb 🙂 Kolkata wouldn’t have been a nice trip at all if it was not for meeting my Joyita beti 🙂  Then the precious 3 days i.e., Mumbai journey with my lil brother Venkat and a short lil meet with Sampath at Hyderabad, meeting all my lovely brothers and sisters Ketki, Harsh, Gareema, Rinish and Dinesh was truly memorable!  All in all though it was just three destinations, we all belonged to different States which were UP, AP, Kerala, Tamilnadu West Bengal, Bihar and Maharashtra. 😀 Year 2012 I am planning to cover Delhi and Amritsar!  Let’s see what’s in store 🙂
  • Thanks to my job!  Financial aspect was a lil better.  As such there were no memories, but all in all the year was pleasant with less and/or no tensions 🙂
  • Thanks to my bestie, I was able to deliver a softskills and personality development session to the Naval Dockyard Employees who were from Delhi and had not less than 23 years of service, which was a feather in the cap for my trainer’s skills! The feedback that I’ve received was.. well, a broad smile on my face! 🙂
  • And lastly there was one precious feeling that I’ve realized towards the end of the year! 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

If I continue to write I hope the space on blog wouldn’t be enough 😀

Before I wrap up and say goodbyes and well wishes, would like to share an incident, which happened on 31st of December!  Logged off from my shift, and started my bike, due to rains or what I don’t know but the horn continued to blow as soon as I turned on the key.  One gentleman came to help me out of this situation.  He was trying to cut the wire of the horn switch so that the noise would stop.  In the process he even got a slight cut on his hand.  Finally he was able to cut the wire.   The horn stopped.  But then what we realized was, the horn switch actually is on the left side of the bike and we both seriously cut the wire on the right side, which was for the ignition key!  😀 😀 😀 the horn didn’t stop when the wire was cut, it stopped because accidentally my thumb pulled the horn key out which was stuck!

Well, I got my bike repaired that’s a different matter.  What I wanted to say here is.. life is all about lots of laughs and beautiful moments, be it small or big!! Treasure it, Enjoy it and Move on!!!

Happy 2012 my friends!!! 🙂